The Best of the Best of THE BEST.

I keep telling myself I don't have to be the best. I don't even have to aim for the best. Because, somehow, deep down in my heart, I know I will never be the best. Too normal, too average, too whatever.

But somewhere in the corners of my mind, there's always this voice saying 'What if'. What if you were meant to be better than this? You could be better than this? What if you were simply too lazy? Undetermined?

I could have.

I could have.

I could have.

And if all this sets me up for a major letdown, I think that's it. That's it for me. For this life. I don't know if I can ever overcome this hurdle if I come to it.

Expect the worse and hope for the best. Maybe then, I can have something to hold on to, however thin, however small. However painful.